― The Unbearable Lightness of BeingWell then. I’m here today, and although i’m so self-focused that i can tell you how that is in a literal way –i mean, that’s kinda what my blog IS, isn’t it– i still find it a sign and a wonder. A sign and a wonder.
Yes, i’m very aware from whence those words come. I’m doing my own thing with ’em.
I was cursed from birth by my own lifegiver, but here i am, and i am not who i was supposed to be.
Her blood in my veins was a poison, her breath in me was a pall.
I cut myself open, deep, sucked out the venom, and spat it on her grave.
I dragged my slow body outside to breathe fresh air and purge her pollution.
And i stand, not who she tried to make me.
A sign and a wonder to my descendants and all who know me and want to know.
Born a slave. Made to serve.
And yet i stand, free.
I chewed through my own bonds and escaped into the desert.
I drank the heat of the sun, my mouth full of sand.
Stumbling, often crawling through the shifting lands, sometimes blinded by the stinging grit. My skin baked, then burned and blistered, then sloughed.
And i stand, no concubine nor consort.
A sign and a wonder. A new being, birthed from my own death, a servant only to myself and my sweet abortion.
Glowing flesh, blood of gold, gossamer wings, crown of light.
My own Saviour.
Sandals by Adidas.
Chubby little fists held tight by hands but a little bigger, and on.
Spanning our hand-in-hand across our intended desolation, until
HERE I STAND
I release my descendants from their destiny of servitude.
By my emancipation, so too are you freed.
Look upon me, for i am a sign and a wonder.
Not a warning, but a jubilant proclamation that all might stand and be free.
Walk with me a while, if you would, for my wings aren’t quite dry.